New Year

Well with a new year comes the opportunity to look back at the old year. As I look back at 2009 there are a few things that stick out and a few things that I choose not to remember. Overall I would say 2009 was a great year, not because it was so fun and full of happiness (although it did have its moments), but rather that I can look back at 2009 and see that I am more of the woman I want to be as a result of it. I heard a quote recently "There are two great tragedies in life, one is to gain your hearts desire and the other is to lose it" by George Bernard Shaw. This is a thought provoking idea, who would think that getting your hearts desire would be a tragedy? I'm sure before 2009 I never would have been able to understand this quote. There were a few desires that I was able to obtain this year but it was through losing them that I was able to see what I gave up to get them. I gave up a huge part of my self these last few years. I felt as though my joy was lost  and I thought in order to obtain it I needed to gain my "hearts desire" or that I needed to search other people. I finally gained both my "heart desire" and a group of people that I thought would help find my joy and yet I was still unhappy. It was through losing my hearts desire that I was able to find my joy again. And it was through that, that I was able to see what the Lord's desire for me was and truly what my desire is.